More like me picking up the pieces of a somewhat shattered life and trying to get my act together, which is harder then I thought it would be. Somehow I'm worse off this year then I was last year, and it frustraits me.
Last summer I was in a good relationship, I had a job that paid rent, groceries, and even enough left over for books. The job ended with me getting mono, which didn't really matter, school started soon after and I would have had to quit eventually. The relationship ended because I found myself spinning into an intense depression, and I broke it off, ruining the only healthy relationship I've ever been in.
My current job I don't really mind, the people I work with are nice enough, but the hours are few and the pay is minimal, which results in me relying on my parents again, something that is a constant scource of guilt for me. I moved out two years ago, and I am more finacially dependant on them then ever. I just got out of the worse relationship of my life, barely escaping with my sanity.
Maybe I'm in the backwards step in th
e "two steps forward, one step back" path of life, but it is still rather frustraiting.I'm making a little progress, and lots of plans for progress.
Come monday I'll make an appointment for pharm tech training. I've been putting it off too long. And an appointment for PTT for a potential job. (After I cancel my oil change appointment, due to lack of funds. Once again, it will rescehduled for next week. It will get done next week, it will get done next week, it WILL get done next week....le sigh. Fucking economic crisis.)
On the relationship front...well, nothing much. My contract with The Sadist ended on Thursday, and I'm debating on whether or not to renew it, for reasons I'll delve into later. I find myself missing Z, as I have every week since our end last Feburary. Nerds are the best companions.
Here goes my attempt to restart my life.
As they say, "the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
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