So after a while of fidgeting about it, I finally managed to ask him what exactly we were.
Conclusion: No idea.
Cool.
But at least I asked, and some of my questions did get answered. I like him, he likes me, we work well together, but with just enough differences to keep him hesitant. He has issues with a previous partner he needs to work out. I am a firm believer that a successful relationship take compromise, he didn't seem to agree, but maybe it is because compromise can mean different things. I didn't mean a compromise in character by any means, merely a compromise/readjusting in goals and plans. He rambled on for nearly an hour on things he needed to talk about. It was nice to listen. He also feels that I'm a good person, whereas he doesn't believe he is (or at least to my extent). I wonder how long it will take him to realize I am just as fucked up, I just learned to hide it better. That should be interesting.
He tends to look down the road and see all the possibilities where a relationship between him and me could go wrong. Looking down the road, I can see them too, but I'm not there yet. I am right here. And right here, in this moment, I can see myself in a relationship with him, and would like to be. Down the road, I won't be the same person I am now, just as I am a different person now then I was a few months ago. 'Everything is subject to change' (says Buddha), and humans are definitely no exception, we are constantly evolving throughout our lives, especially when we are young.
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