Baby Steps

I am taking steps to reduce my anxiety.
Small ones, but important ones.

I got sick Wednesday night, which resulted in me going to the student health office for a doctors appointment. I was told, the even though it was only a viral infection, due to my anxiety attack Sunday afternoon, I should take the day off, and not go to work the next day either.

Not working helped, a lot. I slept in. I got 12 hours of sleep, ate breakfast and then slept some more. No surprise, I had only gotten 16 total hours of sleep between Sunday night and Wednesday morning.

I dropped my stupid online class. The design of the class was poorly written, and it was causing more stress then is was worth. It is an easy class, but I kept missing assignments because they were in a different folder, or he would post them, then not inform us. I will not fail an easy class because the teacher isn't properly using the university's online web system. It isn't his fault entirely, I was at fault too, but he could have been more effective.

I feel better.

While at the doctors office, I told her of my missed cycle. She ran a pregnancy test, but, as expected, it was negative. I am on birth control, and after the incident an emergency contraceptive was administered 12 hours afterward, well within the time period for it to be most effective. The doctor told me that women under immense stress will often miss their periods but to the hormonal imbalance stress causes.

That's right. I am so stressed right now, my body won't even menstruate. Cute.

But I'm feeling better. Looking over the post I wrote about my anxiety attack, I was shocked to realize that I only wrote about half of the actual things that I've been stressed about. No wonder I had an attack.