Halloween

I miss Sony. Halloween is her holiday.

Today was a good day though. I had a really productive therapy session. We talked about the sources of my anxiety attacks, and managed to pinpoint it to three big contributors: Frustration, guilt, and over-stimulation. When you add stress, it compounds everything and makes me more vulnerable to attacks.

The doctor talked about "self talking", a practice where I become aware of my thoughts and attitudes when I am anxious in order to change them in a more positive way. I told him that Buddhism had a similar concept, the concept of "Right View," part of the eightfold path. He seemed happy that it agreed with my religious beliefs. Its pretty cool that Buddhism, a 2500 year old religion, lines up so well with basic modern psychology.


Later on I went to Darlene and Daniel's wedding!
Oh my god, it was so amazing. I was an usher with her son, Dallas. Her daughter was the maid of honor, and she looked so pretty. And Darlene was downright gorgeous. I hope to have pictures to post soon.
I convinced Darren to dance with me, which was fun. Tonight is my last night as Darren and Zach's room mate. I also had a slow dance with a really sweet guy named Josh.

Then I went to the store, bought more boxes, and continued packing. I move tomorrow and have to be up freaking early.